[sticky entry] Sticky: Introduction

Oct. 24th, 2023 04:44 pm
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Hello. Welcome to my journal.

My name is Amber. I'm from Canada. I'm a hobbyist web developer, artist, writer, and editor. I love to create.

I'm a geek. I play a lot of video games, listen to music almost constantly, and watch a lot of movies. I love horror and spooky things. I love Halloween, haunted houses, horror movies, and all things related. I love to write fan fiction, but I don't plan on posting any of it here.

On my journal you will find my thoughts, opinions, and maybe some creative writing as well (that isn't fan fiction) and just sharing whatever I feel like.

No bigots allowed!
 
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I really have not posted in a long time. That's my bad, been so caught up in other things that writing posts has completely escaped my mind.

A lot is new with me, obviously. I have turned 23 years old, and I've played every game in the Yakuza franchise. (I also got the platinum trophy for Like a Dragon: Infinite Wealth not too long ago too!) and I have started getting into Devil May Cry. I have already played the first game (I'm skipping DMC2) and I have only played the tutorial for DMC3 so far (cause my hand was starting to cramp after beating the first game) and I am excited to get more into the games. I've also been finishing up The Outer Worlds (which I have not finished yet even though I have had the game since it came out) and I plan on doing another playthrough of that as well.

Nothing much else to say, other than that I am still around and hoping to be around more often. I'm still pretty much a newbie when it comes to this site. Haha. But I will post and try to interact with the people I have subscribed to more often. New websites like this tend to intimidate me a bit.
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I am writing a quick entry to update on my plans for writing about the Yakuza franchise. I will continue this project. However, I will be doing one game per entry. This means, I will be rewriting my thoughts on Yakuza 0, and Yakuza Kiwami. The old entry will stay up, but expect a new, longer entry for Yakuza 0 before I start writing about Yakuza Kiwami 2 or Yakuza 3.

Entry #3

Dec. 4th, 2023 01:56 pm
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I haven’t really shared many entries here lately, or at all really. I have been busy playing the entire Yakuza/Like A Dragon franchise. The last time I posted an entry like this, I was still playing Yakuza 3. I’ve been playing all of the games all year, and am almost all caught up. I don't even have to worry about finishing Like A Dragon Gaiden before Infinite Wealth comes out, I just have to focus on finishing Yakuza: Like A Dragon, then I’m all set for the new game coming out in January. I’m really excited for it. I was worried I wasn’t going to like the turn-based combat, but I do. While playing Yakuza: Like A Dragon, I am constantly thinking about how its gameplay reminds me of Miitopia. Miitopia is one of my favourite video games of all time. I have both versions of Miitopia, and I have played both of them a lot. I don't think I actually finished the 3DS version of it, to be honest. I need to get on that. I do think I prefer the Switch version of it. I just wish I could have multiple save files because I would love to start a new game with new characters, rather than just adding the characters I like.

Halloween has also come and gone since my last journal entry. I was a vampire like I said I’d be. I didn’t do much on Halloween other than dress up, watch a few Halloween specials, hand out a bit of candy to trick or treaters, and play a bit of Dead by Daylight with some of my friends. I still had fun even if I didn’t really do anything. Now, it’s going to be Christmas soon, and I am excited for it even though it doesn’t feel like it used to. Family drama and stuff. I won’t get into it. But I still have fun, and I hope it will go okay. I am hoping to get some video games for Christmas, along with Hellsing stuff. On my list, I have Like A Dragon: Ishin!, Lost Judgement, Hellsing Ultimate (the complete series on Blu-ray), and the Hellsing manga. Even at least one volume of the manga would be good with me. There are a few things I never put on my list that I would have liked to add now but I think what I have on there should be enough. I want to add Vampire Hunter D Omnibus: Book One to my list. I checked it out from the library last month and only managed to read the first story before I had to return it, but I loved it a lot. I would love my own copy of it some day, but for now I will wait until the new year to check it out again and continue where I left off. When I returned it to the library, I didn’t get any new books because it is becoming that time of year where it will be hard to walk to the library, and I don’t have any boots for the snow. I decided to stop at the comic book store before heading to the thrift store, then the corner store. From the comic book store, I bought the first two volumes of JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure. Phantom Blood, of course. I have already seen the first two parts of the anime and I do really enjoy it. I have been watching more of Stardust Crusaders lately too. I really like it a lot. I watched the first two parts in 2020, but stopped because my attention went elsewhere. But, I am watching it now. My favourite JoJo is still Joseph. I don’t see a lot of love for him, but I really like him.

Other than anime, and manga, and light novels, I have been listening to a bit more visual-kei lately. My top artist of the year on my Spotify Wrapped was BUCK-TICK. I am glad. I wanted it to be them. It felt right. The rest of my top 5 were Ghost, SEGA SOUND TEAM, Kazuma Kiryu (Takaya Kuroda), and Fall Out Boy. I had Kiryu in my top artists because of how much of the karaoke from Yakuza I listen to. My top song this year was actually 24-Hour Cinderella from Yakuza 0. I’m happy about that. It feels right. I can’t wait for the PlayStation Wrap-Up for this year. I hope that Yakuza 0 is my game of the year. I am getting quite a few hours in Yakuza: Like A Dragon though, and I don’t really want that game to be my number one. I want it to be Yakuza 0.

I really haven’t been doing much else. Only really playing Yakuza, watching JJBA sometimes, and talking to my friends. I need some more hobbies, or to start doing my other hobbies again. It has been a long time since I have drawn anything, I just have a hard time with it. I have stuff I want to draw, but I don’t really feel confident enough in my skills. I know I just need to keep practising, but I am horrible about being a perfectionist. I almost always end up abandoning art, and never posting it. Even if I like how my art ends up, I never really post it. I am too nervous. I should just post my art, regardless of how confident I am in it. The same goes for my writing, even if I am a bit more confident in my writing. I have gotten some really nice compliments on my writing. My fanfiction for Ghost has gotten the most compliments, and I am proud of it. I love to write fanfiction, I am just not very good at coming up with ideas. I have been wanting to write some Yakuza fanfiction some day, if I can come up with an idea I will try to write some. I also want to write more essays or just my general thoughts about things as well.

I don’t know if anything else is really new with me. I plan on writing more of my thoughts on the Yakuza franchise soon. I might redo the first one some day, and make it more cohesive. It feels like it’s probably a bit of a mess. Oh well. I think that is all for now, I will be doing a few updates to my website, I need to add some more buttons from my new neighbours! It’s always nice to see who follows me, and to add their buttons. I hope everyone who is reading this has a good rest of their day.
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I have been playing through the Yakuza franchise for the first time this year. Just last night, I finished Yakuza 5 after almost 90 hours of gameplay. It's a very big game, and now that I have played about half of the games they have released so far, I thought I would take a moment to write about my thoughts on the games, from where I started to where I am now.
UPDATE SINCE FIRST DRAFT: I have since finished Yakuza 6, and have started Yakuza: Like a Dragon.

POTENTIAL SPOILERS AHEAD!
 
Yakuza 0:
Yakuza 0 is the first game that I played in the franchise, and it is so far my favourite. It's not too surprising, considering it is most people's favourite as well. It tells an amazing story that kept me on the edge of my seat, with amazing characters. The plot might seem confusing at first, making you wonder how the two protagonists stories are connected, but as soon as the story goes on and everything becomes clearer, it's extremely satisfying.
The two protagonists we follow are Kazuma Kiryu, the usual franchise protagonist, and Goro Majima, the fan favourite who finally (canonically) became playable. (He was a protagonist in the spin-off; Yakuza Dead Souls).
I won't be getting into the plot too much, because I think everyone needs to experience it themselves, as it has become my favourite plot in any video game, and potentially my favourite video game of all time. Let's just say it made me cry. A lot.
The gameplay is really good. It's probably best described as an action-adventure beat 'em up, and some of the other games stray away from this format in later games, but most of the franchise follows this gameplay format. That being said, fighting isn't all there is to do. If you have heard of Yakuza then odds are, you have heard of all of the mini-games there are to play, and Yakzua 0 is full of them. My favourite is always the karaoke. I love the songs, and the gameplay. I am a fan of rhythm games after all. Yakuza 0 features 3 amazing songs for the protagonists to sing, and a number of songs for the hostesses you can meet in the game. Kiryu sings Judgement -Shinpan- (as well as Nishiki) and Baka Mitai. You probably know the latter. Goro Majima only sings one song, but it's 24-Hour Cinderella, so that makes up for it. I'm not a big fan of the disco mini-game, but that's because it confuses me. The timing feels weird, so I always mess up.
Other mini-games include casino games like roulette, black jack, and poker. As well as Japanese games like shogi, and majong. I don't really play those games too much, because I am not a fan of gambling too much, and I don't know how to play the Japanese games.
Another mini-game that I do enjoy however, is the pocket circuit racing. This is exclusive to Kiryu. You get a toy car, customize their parts, and race them on a track to get first place. I absolutely love this mini-game despite looking up guides for it. I almost forgot to mention the batting centr that can be found in most of the Yakuza games. I'm not very good at it, but it's still pretty fun.
Other than the mini-games, there's also the side stories. These are like substories, but bigger. They're a like the b-plot. Both protagonists have a different one. For Kiryu, he has the Real Estate side story, and Majima has the Cabaret Club side story. I do really enjoy both of them but have not finished either of them. I know you get a new fighting style for both Kiryu and Majima when you finish them, so I am hoping to finish them during my second playthrough that I currently have on hold so I can get caught up with the series. In general, Yakuza 0 is a must-play, and my favourite game in the franchise.

Yakuza Kiwami:
The next game that I played was Yakuza Kiwami, a remake of the first Yakuza game. I have a lot of good and bad things to say about this game. The story, while still good, left me kinda disappointed compared to Yakuza 0. I do have to keep in mind that this is technically the first game in the franchise, so the story isn't going to be anything groundbreaking. I do love the characters in this game. This is when we first meet Haruka, the little girl who Kiryu goes on to raise as his own daughter. Speaking of Kiryu, he is the only protagonist, as we won't be seeing multiple protagonists again until Yakuza 4.
The gameplay is the same as Yakuza 0, there's a lot of the same mini-games (minus the disco) and the combat is the same. There is no side story in this game though. Yakuza Kiwami certainly feels like the most empty of the games in the franchise. But, I have a lot more hours in this game than I do in most of the others. The reason? Majima.
Yakuza Kiwami adds new things to the game that weren't in the original game. This includes the Majima Everywhere mechanic. It's exactly what it sounds like; Majima is almost literally everwhere, getting ready to fight Kiryu. It's there as a way to upgrade your Dragon of Dojima fighting style. Fighting styles are exclusively in Yakuza 0 and Yakuza Kiwami. I neglected to mention them in the Yakuza 0 section because I thought I would talk about it here, as both Majima and Kiryu have 4 fighting styles each (the fourth is the unlockable one in Yakuza 0). 
Majima's fighting styles are Thug, Slugger, and Breaker. Thug is a pretty fast and brutal combat style, and Majima's starting style. The next one he unlocks (in Yakuza 0) is Slugger. This style is a weapons focused style that gives you an indestructible baseball bat that can be swapped out with many other weapons. And finally, Breaker is a break dancing style. Yep. Majima can defeat enemies by breakdancing. His fourth style, which I have yet to ever use, is Mad Dog of Shimano style. In this style, Majima wields a dagger and is very fast and acrobatic. 
Now, back to Kiwami so we can talk about Kiryu's fighting styles. Just like Majima, Kiryu has 4 unique styles to use. His first style is called Brawler. It's a pretty average fighting style, similar to Majima's Thug style. Next, is Rush style. This style is very fast, and the more of the Heat gauge you fill up, the faster you go. That applies to all fighting stances. Rush also offers multiple dashes, which is what is used to dodge. Third is Beast style. This style is slow but powerful, and as you attack enemies, any items nearby will be automatically picked up and used as a weapon. It's a very fun style to use. The fourth is Dragon of Dojima style. This one is hard to describe if you don't know the franchise, but this is Kiryu's typical moveset, as the multi-style fighting is only present in Yakuza 0 and Kiwami. Dragon of Dojima style is my favourite of the styles that Kiryu has to offer. It feels powerful and it can get pretty fast as you upgrade it.To upgrade it, you need to do training with Komaki. He is a trainer that is present in pretty much all of the games. The other way to upgrade Dragon of Dojima style is through the Majima Everywhere mechanic. You fight Majima, and when you fight him certain times or after a certain number of times, you get an upgrade. It's my favourite part of the game, because I think it's fun, and Majima is my favourite character in the franchise.
Other than the gameplay, I hate to say it but Yakuza Kiwami is lacking everywhere else. The pocket circuit racing is there, but that's about it. The substories are the biggest disappointment. They're all the same, and some of them are just borderline offensive towards transgendered women. I don't know if all of them were in the original game, but if they were, they really could have been taken out or just tweaked. All of the substories are just people trying to scam Kiryu, he beats them up, you get a reward, and that's it.
The story was fine, it was simple. I love the characters, and the ending did make me cry. I would say that I don't think it's the best place to start with Yakuza oddly enough. Start with Yakuza 0, or start with the (soft) reboot, Yakuza; Like A Dragon.
 
Next entry... I will be talking about Yakuza Kiwami 2 and Yakuza 3 (Remastered)
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Today, it was announced that the lead vocalist of Japanese rock band BUCK-TICK, Atsushi Sakurai, has passed away at the age of 57.
When I first heard the news, I couldn't believe it. I have been a casual fan of BUCK-TICK for over a year or two, but only recently have I really gotten into their music. I really resonated with what I heard despite the language barrier, and watching translated interviews with Sakurai-san made me really fall in love with both him and the band very quickly.
Atsushi resonated with me a lot, with his words, and his demeanour. I could see myself in him somehow. He was quiet, and he seemed very kind and accepting. His bandmates had said so as well.
Even when I don't know Japanese, his lyrics made me feel a wide range of emotions from his vocals alone. I would often find myself getting physical chills from watching performances on YouTube, or feeling myself begin to cry after reading fan translations of the lyrics while hearing the songs.
The first performance of theirs I ever watched was "KISS ME GOOD-BYE" from their 1994 Climax Together concert.


This performance might just be my all time favourite of theirs. I remember the first time I watched this, I got chills all over my body multiple times and I couldn't take my eyes off the screen, and especially Atsushi Sakurai. He has an amazing talent for performing, and I will always admire his stage presence. If I were ever to be a performer some day, I would look to him for inspiration.
I would always find myself coming back to this performance whenever I was feeling sad, but today I can't watch it without crying. I have been crying from the moment I learned of his passing when I woke up this morning.
I can't even begin to imagine how his family, friends, and how the other members of BUCK-TICK must be feeling. He seemed like such a sweet soul. I have only been a big fan of theirs for about a month or so, and this news has rocked me to my core. I felt numb, and I still feel numb.
I wish to honour him somehow, so writing this is a good start, writing about how Atsushi Sakurai and BUCK-TICK has had such an impact on my life in such a short time.
I wish to paint a portrait of him in the near future.
I would like to share a few of my favourite picture of him as well.

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One thing that keeps coming back to me is when he said that "It's okay to run away."
I have never heard anyone say that. People always say that you should never run away, that you should always face your fears or your shortcomings head on, no matter how scary or daunting it is. But he said that it was okay to run away. I think that is really refreshing for me, because I would always feel really horrible whenever I would avoid or run away from something that scared me. If something didn't feel right, and I decided it wouldn't feel right for me to face it, I would feel selfish or cowardly, but hearing him say that, it made me feel better about myself. You can hear him talk about it in his interview.

Even just rewatching that is making me cry. I am going to miss him so much. I can't even imagine how the people attending this past concert are feeling. I am glad that he spent some of his last moments performing, doing what he has enjoyed doing for the past 36 years. This was all so sudden, it doesn't feel real.
I don't want to stop writing, I feel like if I post this, it will be a true acknowledgement that he really is gone. I wish this was just some horrible dream, and that I will wake up soon, but it's not. I am already awake.
My heart goes out to all of his family, friends, the people he worked with, the people who's lives he has had an impact on, and the remaining members of BUCK-TICK.
May his memory live on forever.


Entry #2

Oct. 18th, 2023 09:22 pm
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Today has been pretty good. It's been chill. I spent the whole day working on a fan website that I am going to be running in the near future for the band Ghost. My favourite band. I felt really inspired by a fan website for BUCK-TICK that I have been frequenting because there is a lot of information about that band on their site, but I also like the Romaji they do for their lyrics. Here is a link to the site I am talking about.
On my site for Ghost, I plan on having the bands history, the lore, updates, sharing pictures of merch. All kinds of things! I still need to figure out what I am going to call it.

Other than work on the website, I haven't really done anything else today, right now I am sitting in bed on my laptop and writing this. Before that I was eating some really nice raspberries, while watching YouTube. I have been trying to watch less YouTube lately because I feel bad about not using all of the streaming services my family has, but I have had a bit of a hyperfixation on the Smosh channels lately, and so I watch a lot of their videos. Not only that, because of my BUCK-TICK hyperfixation, I have been watching tons of their live performances. I have a playlist of some of my favourites, as well as some full concerts in there. I also recently downloaded one of their concerts off of the Internet Archive. I have yet to watch it. I have been searching for their more recent full shows, or at least 2005 and onwards, because all of my favourite songs of theirs are post-2005. The most recent full concert I can find on YouTube is Akuma to Freud -Devil and Freud- Climax Together and that's from 2004. What horrible luck. Maybe I should listen to their earlier stuff more often.

Why don't I talk about shows that I have been watching. I recently watched Middleditch & Schwartz the other day. I was having really bad insomnia so I decided to watch the first episode and it was so funny. I wish there were more than 3 episodes, or that there was a way to watch more of their stuff online, but I am glad we at least got that. I watched it once, and then again the next day.
Another show that I have been watching is Gen V, a spin-off of The Boys. It has weekly episodes so I have to wait for a new one every Friday, but it's really good so far. I really love The Boys, and this is just as good. I especially cannot wait for the next episode, because that is the one that is going to have Jensen Ackles in it as Soilder Boy. I really loved him as Soilder Boy in season 3 of The Boys, so I am super excited to see what happens here. The creators have been saying that his involvement in the episode is going to be really cool, so I cannot wait to see what they do.
I can't think of any other show I've been watching, I have been wanting to rewatch The Curious Creations of Christine McConnell again. I watch it all the time but it is one of my comfort shows and it is perfect for the season. I also need to get back to rewatching Ouran High School Host Club. I always rewatch it this time of year and I have only watched the first episode so far. I have been mainly been watching movies and YouTube videos I guess.

I've also been playing a lot of video games. That for sure takes up my time. I have still been playing tons of Yakuza. Hopefully I will finish Yakuza 3 soon, so I can get on with Yakuza 4, and see what it's like with more that two protagonists. I don't know anything about Yakuza 4, so I am really excited to see all the new characters and play a whole new story with tons of stuff, but getting to Yakuza 5 will be really exciting, because there's even more in that game than in Yakuza 4. I just love the Yakuza games so much so far. I think they're really fun and I love the characters and the story of the games. So good!

I will get back to watching something, or maybe reading my book. I am almost done with it but I still have quite a ways to go.

Entry #1

Oct. 14th, 2023 05:46 pm
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This is my first entry on this website. I have never really used a site like this before, I never had anything like it. I am sure it will be an easier place for me to journal, rather than using HTML on my website like I usually do. I might post some of my old website journal entries here if I can. I do like having a journal on my website, I think it's fun, but I also did a lot of work on it and it would be a waste to just get rid of it.

I don't know if I will use this for anything other than journals. I could really write about almost anything and share it here. I could write reviews, or do some short essays on things that I find interesting. Maybe even share some short stories if I can come up with anything. Anyways, I have had an account here for a few days but I am finally going to try to post an entry here.
I also notice that people post fanfiction here. I think I will stick to my usual site for that.

Lately I have been watching more movies. I have a nice streak going, I've been watching at least one movie a day. I have been doing that since the 5th of this month (though I did miss a movie on the 9th) and it has been fun. I have been keeping it generally spooky for October, but on the 12th I saw "Stop Making Sense" in theatres. I had never seen it until then, and I thought it was really good. Other than that, this month I have watched both of the Orphan movies, Totally Killer, Malignant, Re-Animator, Over The Garden Wall, Jason X, and today (so far) I have watched Twitches. Most of those are first viewings, everything except for Re-Animator and Over The Garden Wall. I have really enjoyed all of the movies I have watched so far. I don't know what I am going to watch next, I will have to look around. I should probably finish that one movie I started the other day but never finished but I don't know. I kinda feel like watching Disney movies today. Maybe I will re-watch Hocus Pocus or maybe find something I have not seen before.

Other than movies, I have been keeping it generally spooky this month with the book I've been reading. Other than getting the first issue of the Dead by Daylight comic book, I have been reading a book I checked out from the library. It's "The Final Girl Support Group" by Grady Hendrix. I am really enjoying it so far. I have been trying to read more and this book has been really fun to read. I don't usually get lost in a book too often but this one had me really immersed this morning. I will try to read more of it tonight because it is due on the 18th and I am only a little over halfway through. If I have to renew it, I will. If I can. I don't want to be rude and keep it too long.

The only thing I have not been spooky with this month is video games. I have been playing so much Yakuza still. I played a ton of Yakuza 3 yesterday. I went from Chapter 6 to Chapter 9 last night. The story is really picking up. When I am really into the story of Yakuza games, my focus goes from substories to the main plot. It happened to me during Yakuza 0, I felt such a sense of urgency in that game when there really wasn't any. I guess I got really immersed into the story. Out of all of the Yakuza games I have played so far, Yakuza 0 is still my favourite. I think my least favourite is probably Yakuza Kiwami. I thought the story was the weakest, and the only thing that really kept me playing was seeing all of the Majima Everywhere encounters. Majima made that game really fun until I had to run around and hope that I run into the encounter that I was looking for.
I really liked Kiwami 2, and not just because of the Majima Saga or the new game engine, but I thought the story was at least a bit more interesting than Kiwami.

The music I have been listening to lately is the Yakuza soundtracks, mainly the karaoke but even the actual music from the games is really good too. I am someone to listened to video game soundtracks to begin with, so it's nothing new to me, but I just really like the music from these games. Other than Yakuza soundtracks, I have been listening to so much BUCK-TICK and they have quickly become one of my favourite bands. They are certainly my favourite Japanese band. I just love the sound of their music. My favourite album of theirs so far Juusankai Wa Gekkou, their 2005 album. I love so many songs on that one, Diabolo -Lucifer-, seraphim, Gesshoku, Romance. So many songs on that album are just amazing to me. I highly recommend it. I still have a lot of albums to listen to, I am listening to their album Memento mori right now. On this album, I really like the song Suzumebachi. This album is really good so far. I love the sound a lot. Their album prior to this one has a few really good songs, but I'm not to fussy on it to be honest. They start off really strong, but a lot of the songs are pretty "same" to me. Maybe I need to give it another chance later, or hear more of it. Maybe it will grow on me. Only time will tell.

I don't think I have anything else to talk about. I will figure out what movie I am going to watch next, or maybe see what I can do about posting my entries from my website onto here. If not, it's no big deal.
Have a good day/night, whoever reads this.
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